when I listen to your ipod

I feel close to you, even if you're not around.

hanukkah birthday

It's my birthday week.

I'll be in NYC from Friday until Sunday.

Also:

(My boyfriend has good taste.)

Terrified of Flight

This winter I will get over my fear of flying and take a trip to Florida. I want to visit my Grandma, go to Key West and escape the cold.

Even if it takes a hypnotist. Which could be the equivalent of going to a psychic; something only a simpleton would waste their money on. If worse comes to worse I can always just drug myself with xanax.

I need a set of these for my apartment

More importantly though, a dresser. My clothes are laying all over my room with no place to go. I need to hit up a thrift/antique store for some furniture.

November coming fire(?)

This week has been stressful, but good things are happening for sure.

• Moving to Norfolk starting Saturday
• Birthday, very soon and excited about it for once
• Absolute best boyfriend
• An American Werewolf in London mini bust en route
• Sonic Youth Radio on Pandora
• Black Label and Sparks
• Being really happy despite the change to cold weather
• Eyebrows
• Hot Chocolate
• Still being child-free
• "ring toss"

The cutest thing I saw today

oh my god.

In close second though, was the pit bull playing with a kitten video.

Also, every time I see a man in a diaper, a little piece of me dies.

posting about my birthday(again)

I'm buying myself two things for my birthday. These sunglasses:

And I decided that next week I'll probably go to Ink Gallery and get someone to start my sleeve, starting with the zombie/octopus piece on my upper arm. I'm also thinking of putting a bat on my inner wrist, but we'll see about that.

Also, you can buy me some of this for my birthday if you love me or even if you hate me:



I still want one of these, too. (wink, wink)



p.s. My cat is adorable!

Here's to new beginnings, you fucks

Its 2pm, I'm getting off of work now to vote.

p.s. the suspense is killing me.

Okay, so I'm finishing this at 9am, November 5th.

I am stoked on life right now. Last night was fun as shit: fireworks, Black Label, CNN.com and the refresh button, 4 hours of sleep. And now pretty much all I want to do is eat a sausage, egg and cheese biscuit and curl up in bed next to Charlie.

a blog entry about quitting myspace

I had a long internal monologue with myself last night and part of this morning about ending my myspace usage or deleting it altogether. How true is it that all the coolest people are the ones that don't even have a myspace??

I hate the fact that I find out about things involving my friends via myspace bulletin from a 3rd party. I hate the way its sometimes set up to make you feel like shit, and a lot of times not even on purpose. I think, especially this year in particular, I've used it more for evil rather than good. Actually, I don't even know how true that statement is, but I know that it has upset me more this year than any other prior. I hate that it hurts my feelings when my boyfriend doesn't respond to a message or comment, or the fact that I know there is a picture of him on his ex girlfriend's "about me"(which I find particularly sad but truely denotes how far from reality myspace actually is). I mean, when I speak to Charlie about 50 times a day, does it even matter if he responds back to me or not? No, of course not. I know this, but I think myspace is designed to make people feel shitty about themselves. It also contributes to half-assed friendships because people would rather settle for a comment than actually hang out. Granted, there are positive aspects to it, i.e. keeping in touch with friends from out of state and sometimes my friends even make me laugh via myspace comment/message. (I think the key is to use it sparingly maybe? Who knows)

I didn't just have some sort of epiphany and I definitely think about deleting my myspace every now and then. Will it happen? I'm not sure. Its become some sort of sick daily ritual but I hope one day a bunch of my friends will say "fuck it" and we can all destroy our myspaces together. (and probably, in secret, create new ones)

Click this link to find out why youtube is better than myspace:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O4MNQp1tV7Q

and this one too:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_V57qepGXM

post Halloween blues

This year there definitely was a huge build up to Halloween but Charlie and I pretty much ended the evening by dressing up and playing "scaries" all night and not leaving the house. What is that you ask(or maybe you don't even want to know)?? Its essentially a furry but with monster costumes, so there you go. Fake blood and wearing a mask gets my boyfriend's dick hard, what can I say?

Well, its the first week of November, the clocks were set back today and they are putting up Xmas decorations in Target already(shudder). It made me a little sad. Also, I move out to Norfolk in the next week or two. I will attempt to out run my depression like I do every winter, I'm just crossing my fingers that this one will be different from the others. I'm trying my best to be positive even though it already feels like, at times, my world is up in flames for no reason at all.

Oh yeah, election day is Tuesday! and gas is $1.99, absurd!